Thursday, March 04, 2010
One year ago today...
*WARNING - MAY CONTAIN DISTURBING CONTENT*
One year ago today...was the worst day of my life thusfar.
One year ago today I saw my husband for the last time, lying underneath a desk, blood all around him.
One year ago today, my husband accidentally shot himself in the arm with a handgun, and crawled to a phone to dial 911.
One year ago today, he died waiting for the help that never came.
One year ago today, he died all alone in the dark, on a cold, dark floor.
One year ago today, he made me a widow, and my children fatherless.
One year later, I can tell you what happened to him by sharing it on this blog.
One year later, I am still not over it, and I don't know how many more years it will take.
One year later, I am still angry with him for being so stupid.
One year later, and every day in between, I think of him dying all alone that way, and die a little inside myself.
One year later, and a lifetime to go....